“Do your part and let God work out the rest of the miracle.”

I registered for Kerygma Family. It’s an online subscription initiated by Bo Sanchez for people who are working overseas. The goal fo this subscription is to email the day’s gospel and insert reflection stories and other wonderful insights.

I love this subscription!

It’s like every monring, when I check my email, I see the word of God and other stories taht I can live by.

Like for instance, I’ve been very pressured with life lately. I have my work and I love my work but there are moments that I want to give up already. There’s Doms, who’s always there for me but sometimes I want more. I don’t know why, but I want more. There’s the wedding planning and preparation. We have more than one year to prepare but why am I feeling pressured? And just when you thought the rest was OK already, here comes financial problems.

All of these stuff are making me feel that I am incompetent. I try my best to finish all of these but I can’t! That’s the time when my good friend Aki told me this:

“Don’t do everything by yourself. Do your best and offer the rest to God!” The reason why you feel exhausted and tired is because you try to do it all by yourself. Offer your work and your problems to God. He will finish your work.”

This is exactly what I recieved for todays Kerygma email. “Do your part and let God work out the rest of the miracle.”

I really believe that most of the people alive believes there’s a God but doesn’t believe that He can help them. They think their human bodies can withstand everything and their minds can solve all, but no. Our bodies and our mind can only wihtstand up to a certain level. After that, it gets tired and exhausted.

To those who are reading this, remeber that God is a powerful God. We don’t need to show him that we are strong and we can anything. Let’s be fragile and let god know that there are times that we cannot do it. Let’s leave everything to Him. Bute remember to do our part also.

Healthy Lifestyle

Yesterday afternoon, Doms and I went out in the cool breeze and decided to jog in the park. We kept on planning ang planning to do this ever since but this was the first time we actually did it.

I was very tired and my knees and thighs hurts! But it was really fun! I was jogging with Doms and we talked about a lot of things.

But, towards the end, he said he needs to run faster because his momentum will loose so I allowed him to go ahead.

After that, he wanted to play basketball. He saw a group playing basketball and he joined them. I believe this was the first time I watched Doms play basketball. I didn’t know that he was good.

He knows how to drive and I really enjoyed watching him play. I was even clapping my hands eveerytime he shoots the ball!

 

Ipon Mode to the NTh Degree

Now that Doms and I decided to get married already, the next step that we need to do is to save. Yep, saving has been part of our lives already and it really sucks knowing that it seems like all our lives we kept on saving and saving. Well, I think this is part of life alredy.

Anyway, now seriously saving, here are some stuff that we need to do:

• Go to the grocery once a week and buy food for the whole week only. Tendency is for us to excess food if we buy for the whole month.
• List all the stuff needed before going to the grocery.
• Make a Menu Guide for our food for every week.
• Avoid going to malls. Hehehe..
• Avoid buying instant cravings like ice cream or cake in the middle of the night.
• We are only allowed to spend 50sgd per month for anything that we want. This refers to food and leisure only. For example, we decide to watch a movie in the 2nd weekend of the month. Movies tickets cost 20sgd for the 2 of us and food for 10sgd. So we only have 20sgd to spend for the rest of the month. That can be our meal if we want to eat in a fastfood or resto.
• If we can avoid things to buy the better.

That’s it!

Free Movies, Yeay!

Yesterday was our quarterly team Cheers celebration. This event is done by every team here in my office. For our team, we were treated with a buffet of wonderful tasting cuisines.

The food was great!

There was also a raffle held for everyone. So, during speech time the winners were announced and I luickily won a pair of Golden Village tickets and a cash voucher for cinema treats.

I was really not expecting it because I know I am not the lucky in raffles. So when my name was called as part of the grand winners, I was smiling so hard.

Now, Doms and I have tickets to any movie that we want to watch.

We are only choosing among these movies to watch:

Oh Yes, I am Engaged

For our 3rd year anniversary. Doms and I planned for different things to do. I suggested we go to Hong Kong and Macau and he wanted to go to KL.

I searched endlessly for tour packages that suits our budget but unfortunately, we didn’t find any.

So, we went down to the plan of having two days of celebration.

Saturday, 24th October 2009
We planned to shop for our gifts. I bought Doms a pair of Lacoste shoes and he bought me a dress and a pair of shoes. We wore our new outfits in our special day.

Sunday, 25th October 2009
Doms and I went to Iluma Mall to watch Julie & Julia. The movie as so hilarious. I was surprised to see Doms liking the movie and actually laughing out loud in certain areas. After that, we went to the nearest church and heard our Sunday mass. I was thanking the Lord for how wonderful the person beside me is. Doms was the greatest gift that God gave me. Dinner came and we tried Thai Express in Iluma. The food was nice but we didn’t like the drinks that we ordered.

We decided to ride the bus going home so we can talk. The one-hour ride was heavenly! We talked about our future. We talked about our plans of getting our own place after getting married. I love it when Doms and I talk about our old age and how we will spend our life together.

We arrived home and did our usual ritual of playing Guitar tour in Doms’ iTouch. After that we do our next ritual of updating and training our creatures in the iPod application called Creatures.

While playing, Doms asked me, “Mahal mo ba ako?” I said, “mahal na mahal”. Then he asked, “Papakasalan mo ba ako?”, I said “maski paulit-ulit”. Then I hugged him. When I went back to watching him play Creatures, I saw it! The ring!

I was surprised and the only thing I said was “shit” and tears flowed out my eyes. I was so happy and excited that tears went out instantly.

Doms hugged me and kissed me and said “Ayan ha, papakasalan na kita”.

I immediately went to take my phone and took pictures of the ring and of me and Doms.

Here is a picture of my ring in the jewelry store’s website:

Day 1: Working Over Time

It’s day 1 without Doms. The person who was with me for more than 300 days is in the Philippines for a vacation. I forgot how it feels to miss somebody too much.

Shucks!

Well, to keep myself busy, I drowned myself with work. I arrived in my office around 8:50 am and left 9:10 pm. This is how I kept myself busy.

Tomorrow is another day. I plan to keep myself busy again, but I wont go over time!

I badly wish it’s Monday already!

OK, Let Me Erase That Thought

Last week was a bad week for me. I was so mad at Doms and I was being all dramatic about it. Well, that is expected already because believe it or not, what happened last week was really not a big deal. I couldn’t get myself to think that I was able to write 2 “angry” blogs about it.

Reason: It’s the time of month

So, let me erase that thought for you! Friday night, everything was back to normal already.

Now, I’m starting to feel bad again. You see, Doms will be having a vacation in the Philippines for 5 days, starting tomorrow. He will back Monday morning.

For the longest time, Doms was with me and I now I’m starting to panic because he will not be there for me for 5 days. That’s a long time!

I wish it’s Monday already so I Doms will be with me again.

To my Doms, I wish you enjoy your vacation. Take care!

Don’t Expect, Repeat… Don’t Expect

Just when I when I was about to give up, I got an email from the World Youth Day friends. They were mentioning about the next WYD to be held in France in the year 2011. I read the entire email!

You know, attending the WYD in Australia last year was my greatest ambition! I prepared for the interview and the other stuff so that I can pass the test and be part of our parish’s congration to Sydney. Thanks God I passed! I was so happy! But, as always, I was not able to join.

WHY?

Because I prioritized a lot of things first. I prioritized my work, the staibility of my finances and I prioritized our future.

Now, I’m thinking… Why did I prioritize those things? I should have prioritized the WYD because at least with this, I will be fulfilled. Prioritizing “others” just made me feel unsatisfied and this made me expect a lot of things because I thought that te “others” were prioritizing me.

You guessed right! I fell to the trap of hoping again. And this sucks!

Now, that I realized it, nothing that I was hoping to happen to me really happened. OK, let me just make it clear, I am talking about my personal life here. Not work, repeat, THIS IS NOT ABOUT WORK!

Shucks!

Expecting for people to feel the same way as me or react the same way as or PLAN the same way as me really disappoints me.

But how will you handle this?

So, Is This What You Want Me To Feel?

I have no choice.

What else do you want me to do? As if thinking was easy at that time.

It happened instantly, with no warnings! Even worse was that it happened in the middle of the street  while I was crossing. If you were with me, what will you do?

I know you too well.

If you were with me, instead of helping me, you’ll be mad at me. As if it was my fault. Instead of laughing with me and make fun of the incident, you’ll stomp your feet and say things to hurt me and blame me. If you were with me, instead of thinking of long-term solution, you’ll think of the easiest more convenient to YOU way to get out of the situation.

 I really know you too wel.

This happened many times before and I just keep everything to myself.

Now, I feel stuck, guilty, and sad. Just like what you want me to feel.

Why Am I Always Sleepy?

I’ve been asking this question quite often for the past months. No matter how long my sleep is, like 8 to 9 hours, I still gets sleepy when I wake up or when I’m at work already.

I don’t know why but I always feel tired and sleepy. Whether be it a weekday or a weekend. So I made I research about this. Here are the stuff that I collected.

Reasons why even a person gets enough sleep, he/she still gets sleepy and tired all the times:

1. Too much stress, anxiety or depression = This might be the cause of why I still feel tired even when I get enough sleep. I am a type of person who thinks too much about things happening around me and things that will happen. I try my very best not to think or worry about those things but I still think about them! I am not depressed though. I just think too much!
2. Adrenal Fatigue = “is a putative health disorder in which the adrenal glands are claimed to be exhausted and unable to produce adequate quantities of hormones, primarily cortisol. The term “adrenal fatigue” is a label sometimes applied to a collection of non-specific medically unexplained symptoms, but it is not a medical condition recognized by mainstream institutions. Adrenal dysfunction as identified by such institutions is termed adrenal insufficiency or Addison’s Disease.”
3. No excercise = We have a gym and a swimming pool in our condo, but still, I do not have excercise.
4. Lack of fruit and veggies vitamins = OK, OK, I hate veggies but I try to eat them.