Lately, I’ve been going through a lot of things and changes in my life as a whole. Before, I wasn’t this strong in making decisions and making “the leap”. I was contented with what I have. I made most of what I get. And I liked being “just” there.
Now, with my future at stake, I’ve become more agressive.
I am not sure but I think some of the people will not understand my reasons, but the hell with them, (another thing that changed, I usually consider what other people think, but not I say, the hell with them).
I am really scared now. There are a lot of what if’s and but’s. I am scared and fearful of something uncertain…
… and the only way I know how to deal with this is to PRAY.
Yes, pray.
Ever since I came here in Singapore, I kept on praying. Every waking day, every working day, every minute when I remember my problem. The frequency is different by a mile when I was still in Manila. And I saw and felt the difference.
Really, He does work in wonderful ways. Just like the Responsorial Psalm for today, on the 17th Wk of OT: “The Lord is kind and merciful”.
Now, I don’t know why I am so scared to take the leap. I am thankful to my friends, Peejay and Deejay (rhyming pa?) for all the advice that they give me. To Doms and my family for always encouraging me. Without them, I don’t know where I will be.
Now, I just need to relax and be calm about everything.
